I am so proud to be a part of A.L. Mabry’s blog tour. I am honored to call her my best friend, something that would not have happened if we’d never met through a writing group. They paired us up as writing partners and the rest is history.
Finally, it is her turn to shine. She just released her first book March 28, 2018. You might consider me biased as I have been involved in the stories within it and the artwork as well, but I’m being honest. Each story will touch your emotions in a different way. I daresay you will have experienced every emotion (and maybe even some new ones) known to man by the time you finish the book.
I asked A.L. to write a guest post for me talking about the darkness her stories stem from.
DV Survivor by A.L. Mabry
I’m not bitter. I’m not terribly broken. A little broken, but I think that’s to be expected. I decided a long time ago that becoming bitter or carrying around anger would only give power to those who chose to hurt me. That’s a very unsettling thought. People chose to hurt me.
I am not trying to say that I am a bouncing ball of sunshine. That would be bullshit no one would buy! But, I have taken all the pain and fear and learned how to use them. I pour emotion into my poetry. And I poke at this beast we call humanity in my dark fiction.
Darker Daze is a collection of dark fiction short stories written over the course of two years. It is the first volume in what I hope to be an extensive collection. Writing these stories has been my own personal therapy. I’ve never gone to see a therapist but I know I can’t simply bury the memories and emotions. I can’t fit this many skeletons in my closet.
Instead, I pick at memories. I have suppressed more than I care to admit but this way I pick in small doses. In a lot of my stories I explore worst case scenarios. Almost the opposite of wish fulfillment writing.
My first marriage was a nightmare. I met my ex-husband when I was 16. He was considerably older, and I made lots of bad decisions. I ended up pregnant within just a couple months. I was determined to not be a statistic. I knew I hated him with the first trimester of my pregnancy. But as far as I was concerned it was too late. This was the life I chose. He was my consequence and I have always submitted to punishment without a fight.
I was so smart but young and dumb. I was scared and easily intimidated. My self esteem was so low that it didn’t take much effort on his part to lift me up periodically. Of course, when you’re up the only way to go is down. He put me down a lot. I learned to own the labels he gave me behind closed doors. I learned to smile next to him around company.
Over the years the torment in our relationship escalated. And I learned to compensate as needed. The last week I was with him he tried to kill me three times. Not figuratively. Literally. He would try while I was asleep.
During that month or so prior I made some friends on an online game. (Unrelated but I learned that game is shutting down this April.) These people invited me and my kids to their home. It was a dangerous and risky decision but I knew, I KNEW, if he killed me he would kill our kids as well. I still believe that today.
My oldest son and I spent a whole night quietly pack a few things at a time into my small car while my ex slept in our living room. (To clarify, we were “split up” but he refused to leave the house.) The money I had secreted away was gone. He’d found it. I didn’t care. I was hitting the road and I would figure out the details along the way. That morning I dressed the kids and said they’d missed their school buses. I piled them in the car and drove to Ohio. I have never looked back.
This is a truncated and candy coated version of that period in my life. I plan to write it out more and place on my site in the future. I want other women to know it’s okay to be scared, but there is someone out there who understands and there is someone out there who WILL help you. A perfect stranger saved my life in 2011. I’m not bitter. I’m not terribly broken. A little broken, but I think that’s to be expected.
Until next time, scribe happy & stay sassy,
To find out more about A.L. Mabry, you can follow her tour stops here (yes! in your pajamas!):
Our Write Side and OWS Ink Tour Announcement March 23rd
The Wandering Pen & Spoon, http://www.wanderingpenandspoon.com/ Author Interview March 24th.
An Angell’s Life Book Review March 25th
Donise Sheppard Blog Author Interview March 26
http://michaeloconnorwriter.com/ Guest post from A.L. Mabry Art Imitates Life March 27th
GoIndieNowFlagship Show– Reading of Sweet Release by A.L. Mabry March 30th
https://jm-ames.com/blog/ Author Interview April 2nd
Between the Beats Book Review April 3rd.
Author interview With Fiona McVie April 4th
https://rebekahjonesy.blogspot.com/2018/03/amanda-mabry-interview.html Author Interview April 5th
Reading of Bonita on A.L. Mabry’s Youtube Channel April 6th
Bound 2 Escape Release announcement April 7th
JK Allen interview Monday April 9th.
Drew Carmody author interview April 10th
Stacy Overby April 13th
Guest post on how Art makes life better with Sugarbrewstudios April 14th
Beautiful Book Geeks April 17th
Stephanie Ayers guest post Domestic Violence Survivor April 18th
Guest post by A.L. Mabry on Nicole Mackey’s blog, April 20th.
About the Author
A.L. Mabry is one of the founders of and the Executive Marketing Manager for Our Write Side (OWS Ink, llc), an online community for writers, readers, publishers and more. She writes occasional articles on OWS focused on the connection between life and writing. She publishes articles on Medium and also has a weekly writing prompt; Coldly Calculating: Writing By The Numbers: Putting a dark twist on colloquial phrases with a numbers theme. She was previously the Editor in Chief for Eat, Sleep, Write and once ran a successful special needs blog, Rage Against the Washing Machine which has since been retired. She is a highly sought freelance writer who specializes in research-based writing. This allows her to provide quality content on a variety of topics. She enjoys helping other authors find their way with private coaching and sharing what she has learned from personal experience, for example, this post on Perfecting Your Bio. As an author, she enjoys writing in all genres and forms, even grocery lists. She is an artist at heart and Wiccan by nature with an obsessive love of vampires, kilts, and blue butterflies. She is passionate about many topics, and her posts and stories are often laced with the snarky sense of humor one acquires from raising five teenagers, all at once.
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